I can’t take it anymore. I’m taking this break because you want me to be this friend that I just can’t be right now.

I’m just going to let it all out maybe you can understand it this time.

I’m taking this break because I have such strong feeling for you, and you feel nothing towards me. I can’t handle having these feelings for you anymore because they’re getting out of hand cause I’m scared that I might do something that I will regret. This isn’t right and I shouldn’t have feelings like this but I do! If you could just understand that. All I did this weekend is check my phone an watch tv and think about you, if you even cared that I’m taking this break. If you even want me to come back from this break. That’s all I did. I didn’t spend anytime with my friends. I barely even ate.

If you could just understand that I’m scared of my own feelings! something that I don’t even know how to control anymore. That scares the shit out of me.

Im sorry that I can’t hide my feelings like my friend can do with the girl he likes. We aren’t the same people. If I could hide my feelings I damn sure would. But I can’t! I would rather have you as a friend then nothing at all but if I had you as just my friend I would be hurting myself more then I already am.

These feelings aren’t healthy for me, can’t you see that? Id love to be that friend you want me to be but I can’t, not right now at least.

I wish we could of talked more tonight.